slowing down

There are days that fly by in a blink of an eye.  I rush from one thing to the next forgetting to slow down, take a breathe, and savor the moments.  Working in an office environment has pushed me deeper into this fast paced non stopping mentality.  There is always something to be done and before I even begin I am behind.  I must be quick and nimble.  Use every minute in the day and push things along quickly.  

This constant state of motion can wear a girl down.  Constantly seeking for answers.  Living in that state of unknowing.  Wondering which way to turn and jumping boldly.  It has pushed me to think on my feet.  Analyze quickly and move on.  But it has also sucked the wind out of me and has left me feeling exhausted.  

We all need time to slow down.  To soak in the sunset, day dream, and simply just be in the moment.  I know that I cannot be in a constant state of motion and conversation.  I need breathing space and moments of quiet to sink into.  The constant rush wears me thin and makes me lose my way.  

And so I turn to:

  • Going for a walk around the block.  The movement of one foot in front of the other helps me to clear my head and slow down
  • Pour myself a hot mug of tea, sit on my porch, and watch the world move forward
  • Take time to dig into a book and read to my hearts content
  • Light my twinkle lights, put on some favorite songs, and just sit on my couch and breathe

It is these simple self care practices that take me back.  They slow me down, rejuvenate my soul, and help breathe a little bit deeper.  What are some of your self care practices?  How do you get back to yourself when the world is constantly pulling you in many directions?  

Having a self care practice is very important.  You must know what heals you.  What brings you back.  Without that you may lose your way and not be sure how to find your way back.  I encourage you to take some time to develop your own self care practices and integrate them into your life when you feel like things are getting a little wonky.  


love notes begins, again

Another round of the Love Notes Postcard Project (#lovenotesjb)  began this Sunday and I am ecstatic!  I started this project for two reason:

  1. I LOVE snail mail
  2. I was craving connection and thought others might be as well

The project is simple ... for three weeks you are matched up with someone, each Sunday I provide a writing prompt, and then you fill out your postcard in response to the prompt.  Yup, it is that easy and the only cost is the postcard and a stamp.  

When I began this project I had no idea how it would unfold.  All I knew was that the only thing that arrived in my mailbox were bills and that needed to change.  I needed  sunshine and words that I can dig into.  Something beautiful that I could hold in my hand that would push me to pause.  And so the Love Notes Postcard Project began.    

Individuals who have participated have taken this project above and beyond my wildest dreams.  Some create mini works of art that they send through the mail, others continue to write to one another long after the round is over, and some have even formed deep friendships.  This is  my 13th time hosting and each time it get's better and better.

I wish there was a way for me to wave my magic wand and have everyone together.  It would be lovely to see everyone's face, chat about what's important in our lives, and share our mutual passion for snail mail.  But, since participants are from all over the world that isn't physically possible.   So I invite you to gather on the virtual dock.  It is here where we can visit one another's virtual front porches.  Where we can get a peak into their lives and a feel for where they are writing from.  Stop by and say hello.  

virtual dock

I am {secretly} dreaming up mini love note gatherings.  An afternoon together around the table where we can meet and write love notes with one another.  An open space where we can show up exactly as we are and be surrounded my kindred spirits.  Is this something you would be interested in?  

It is amazing how this project started out as a conversation between Dustin and I.  An inkling of an idea.  Bouncing thoughts back and forth with one another.  And then just going ahead and taking the leap to see what would happen.  I am so glad that I took that leap.  It has brought me here to round 13 and knowing that there is so much love and beauty fluttering through the postal system. So fun!  

What idea do you have bubbling?  What little thing do you maybe want to try?  Give it a chance for you never know what will come of it. 

crossing the bridge

I have been standing on an island of discontent.  I cannot place my finger on exactly what it is but there are pieces of me that cannot seem to find a way to smile.  The world feels as if it is caving in on me and I am unsure of how to control it.  It comes in quickly and pulls me down.  There are moments when I cannot handle the high energy of a room and immediately want to run out the door.  

Has this ever happened to you?  Have you ever felt like you lost your spark?  Have you ever kept putting one foot in front of the other but always felt like there were piece of something hold you back from experiencing the full joy that the moment presented?

This is where I stand.  I want to cross the bridge and jump into the light but I know that I must first recognize this inner turmoil and find the root cause.  I am unsure of what exactly it is that has been pulling me down but I do know that I am not making anything better by casting blame on others or getting upset by small things.  

I need to rewrite the story to tell the truth.  Hiding in this current story is getting me nowhere fast.  I need to shed light and be honest on what the real hurt is that I have buried deep.  I will never be able to cross the bridge into the light until I do this.  

So I am turning to my notebook.  Writing first how I see there is something going on.  Through this recognizing it is my hope that as I continue to write whatever "it " is will surface and I will be able to re-write the story.  I want to find my spark again.  I want to enter a room with a smile and really feel it.  It begins right here with me and I won't give up until I am shining.

keep going

red rock canyon

When you feel as if you are standing still
Keep going, keep moving
The world is your oyster
Explore it
Seek out new adventure
Engage in conversation
Make eye contact
Take the long way home
Just keep going
To accomplish anything you have to be strong
Brave
Fierce
You have to have the willingness to take a risk
Dig deep for your courage
Leap
And along the way learn how to fly
Fall, again and again
But always get back up
Keep going
Keep moving
Search for what you desire
Never give up
Hold onto hope
And ask for help along the way
This is your time
Don't let it slip away
Go after your dreams
Just keep on going
 

travel

red rock canyon

“We travel, initially, to lose ourselves; and we travel, next to find ourselves. We travel to open our hearts and eyes and learn more about the world than our newspapers will accommodate. We travel to bring what little we can, in our ignorance and knowledge, to those parts of the globe whose riches are differently dispersed. And we travel, in essence, to become young fools again- to slow time down and get taken in, and fall in love once more.”   Pico Ayer

I love to travel.  Spending time in places I have never been opens up my heart.  Seeing new sights and experiencing new things I become surprised and delighted by what unfolds.  When I travel I have the willingness to risk and not care about looking like a fool.  I will try something new and simply just go for it.  

When I travel I feel as if the entire world is opened up to me and I can be or do anything. The people I encounter see me for who I am in that exact moment.  They do not know my back story.  They do not know the sadness I carry in my heart or how terribly shy I used to be.   They don't know where I am coming from or where I am going.  They  just see me in that moment exactly as I am.  

Travel is a gift.  It brings about a freedom that I can't seem to find at home.  It pushes me past my boundaries, reminds me of how strong I am, and sets me free of any expectations I have been carrying along.  When I travel I learn so much about myself.  

On this past trip I learned that I need to slow down.  When I am somewhere I tend to be in a rush to experience it all.  I don't want to miss a thing and I don't want to waste my time.  But there is so much to see and feel even when we are standing still.  When you walk slowly you experience a place more deeply.  You give yourself the chance to take it in and you tuck into your heart what you want to carry home.  You may even find the right path to pick up your bags.  

This weekends trip reminded me of the time I spent driving cross country with a friend and one of her friends that I had never met before.  It was a trip of a life time.  NJ to CA and then back.  We had the opportunity to visit the most stunning national parks and meet some of the most interesting people. 

On the way out west we stopped in Selena Utah because our bellies were hungry and we needed to fill the car with gas.  We found our way to this store that sold everything one could need in a small town ... pizza, video rentals, balloons, and tuxedo rentals were just a few of the things you could get in this one shop.  We were delighted by this because it was something we never experienced before.  

Another time we stopped for lunch was in Colorado.  We entered a restaurant where the gentleman who sat us at the bar took our order and also cooked our food.  He owned the place and had so many stories to tell us about the area.  He was intrigued by our trip and we were happy to share about our travels.  

Being on the road feels like home to me.  I love the unexpected.  Like crossing four lanes of road because we realize we need to turn right instead of left.  I love having the radio on and singing along to the tunes.  The scenery is ever changing and you just never know what you may encounter.  You see things you will never see at home and meet people you most likely will never see again.  It is an incredible journey filled with hope.  

There is something about the west that pulls me in.  The mountains, the colors, it feels like peace to me.  I am grateful to have so many wonderful memories tucked into my heart.  Watching the sunset at the grand canyon after we decided that seeing the sunset was way more important than putting up our tent properly.  After all we were only staying there one night.  And the great big arches that reached all the way up to the sky.  They were beyond breathtaking.  There were also the moments that you look back on and chuckle like when the vending machine was covered in little bugs and you were hoping for a snack or the time you ran over something big and were grateful that the owner of the car was asleep when it happened.  And the way that you never met him but how often she spoke of him on the journey you felt like you had known him forever.  

Hearing the song The Scientist by Cold Play brings me right back to California and how we  played this song on repeat in the car.  We swam in the ocean for hours in San Diego and never got a chance to taste In-n-Out burger.  But finally after miles of searching we did find a Taco Bell.    

Travel has made me a better person.  It has encouraged me to explore and pushed me to grow.  It has given me opportunity and taught me how to adapt to ever changing situations.  What I like most about traveling is going with the flow.  There is always something new to see and someone new to meet.  Traveling fills my adventurous spirit.  I am so grateful for the many different opportunities that I get to explore new places and see the world from the road.  

For travel is it's own type of tour guide.  When we are open enough to listen it will guide you to your next destination.  Be open to all the road has to teach you. 

what i want you to know

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What I want you to know is that there are moments that I do not know where I am going.  I put one foot in front of the other and just keep moving.  I am unsure of the path ahead of me, but know that I can no longer sit still.  

What I want you to know is that it isn't always easy.  I have stumbled and fallen down more times that you will ever know.  There has been pain, deep deep pain.  Heartache has taken my breathe away and tears have fallen.  But I have survived and I have preserved.  

What I want you to know is that all of my grand plans didn't work out.  There were times when I fell flat on my face.  When others weren't sure what I was doing.  When I made of fool of myself or got lost along the way.  

What I want you to know is that it isn't always easy.  The world isn't going to hand you exactly what you want in a pretty perfect package.  You have to put in the hard work.  You have to try.  And sometimes no matter how hard you try it doesn't work out.  

What I want you to know is that sometimes you will shift courses.  New things will open up to you that you didn't even knew existed and you will be intrigued and enthralled.  You will begin a new journey and you will not know where it is going.  

What I want you to know is that things are always changing.  Nothing stays the same forever.  You have to keep your heart open.  Your feet moving.  And your dreams alive.  

What I want you to know is that along the way you have to give thanks and show gratitude.  You must stay humble and kind.  When you share yourself with others you are doing a service to this world and spreading love.  

What I want you to know is that I never thought that I would be standing where I am today.  But I am here and I am happy.  And life isn't perfect but it is pretty awesome.  And when we appreciate the awesome more of it comes.  

What I want you to know is that you will never get another today, so make it count.