it is all going to be ok

If I could tell you one thing right now it would be that it is all going to be ok.  I know it doesn't seem like it.  The road you are on feels dark with no light in sight.  But believe me the light is there, you just have to seek it out.  The world wants to open it's arms up to you but you need to be willing to put in some work yourself.  Opportunity does not just come knocking.  It takes time.  It takes determination.  It takes being brave enough to follow your own heart and reach out and ask for help when you need it.  

You my dear are an incredible human being who deserves the best.  Your warm heart and gentle soul are a gift to this world.  You deserve to be cherished.  Yes, I know you have made mistakes.  We all have.  It is not your mistakes that define you but what you choose to do in the aftermath of them that does.  Do not hold onto these mistakes with deep regret.  Understand your decision for making them and forgive yourself.  Yes, forgive yourself.  Do not look or wait for anyone else to forgive you.  Just forgive yourself.  

Before you fell into this darkness what infused your soul with light?  What made you smile?  What brought you joy?  Go back to your roots of happiness and lean deeply into them.  Do not ever expect another human being to be the one to make you happy.  You need to make yourself happy first.  I know it sounds cliche, but it is true.  Find the things that feed your soul and devour them.  Do not ever let anyone take them away from you.  For these are the things that ignite your spark.  These are your gifts to the world.  

I see you deep inside your sadness.  I know it hurts.  But what I want you to know is that you are not alone and you have the power to change it.  Shift your perception and you shift everything.  You are standing here with a clean slate.  A chance to start all over again.  I know that you never expected or wanted to be starting all over again but what a divine thing to do with all the lessons you have tucked into your pockets.  You are wiser now.  Stronger.  You know what you don't want, and sometimes that is more important than knowing what you do want.  

Lean into the unknown.  Share your heart.  It may feel broken right now but you still have so much of it to give.  Reach out.  Tell your stories.  Let other's in.  Give yourself permission to feel the light that is shining on you and let go of what is no longer serving you.  Step boldly onto the path that you always wanted to travel.  Do the things that make you happy.  Re-discover the pieces of yourself that you have tucked away.  

It won't be easy.  But nothing ever is.  One thing that is for sure though, is that it will be worth it.  All the hard work and unearthing you do will bring forth the bright light inside of you that has dimmed.  You got this, you totally got this.  And remember, it is all going to be ok.    

traveling through the journey

We are all traveling somewhere
Headed in a direction
Even when we do not realize it
The world keeps turning
We keep spinning
Never sure of where we are going to end up
Even when we plan where that will be
A bend in the road appears
A new path is taken
Completely out of our control
The best that we can do is to roll with it
Accept what comes
And keep pushing forward
Life will always continue to go on
Whether you are ready for it or not
So try your best to embrace the hiccups
Let the rough times travel through you
Do not cling to them
Do not let them weigh you down
Let go
Be open
Feel free as you travel
The journey is beautiful
Open your eyes to see it

choosing to be "uncool"

I noticed that I have been playing it safe.  I have been standing on the ground I know and not taking steps into that uncomfortable territory.  When I stand in this space I am protected.   I know what to expect.  I know the roads to travel down.   I can get from one place to the other with my eyes closed, because I have been here before many times.  

But what if I stretched?  What if I pushed myself beyond this zone of comfort and showed up in a space that was unknown and unpredictable.  What would happen?  What if I didn't allow myself to hide?  What if I became the "uncool" kid in a group of "cool" kids?  What if I said what I really wanted to say?  What if I choose to feel it all, even when it didn't feel so good?

I know that when I push myself past the edges I am uncomfortable.  I do not know what to expect, how to prepare, or what to bring along for the ride.  I step into this great unknown and I must learn how to adapt along the way.  It feels raw and messy.  It is scary.  

But when I show up in this space, free of expectations and ready to feel all the feels, I have the opportunity to unlock something inside of me that I didn't even know was there.  I have the chance try something new, meet new people, learn something I never knew about myself.  Doors open where I didn't even a door was there.  Moments that I could never ever have dreamed of occur and I am cracked open.  Changed forever in the best possible way.  

I know I need to push myself outside of my comfort zone.  I need to show up when it feels hard and raw.  I need to be brave with my voice and speak the words I truly want to speak.  I need to do it anyway, even in the face of fear.  I need to allow myself to feel the raw, tender, unknown feelings and take away whatever it teaches me.  I need to step into the great expanse.  

It is not easy to be the "uncool" kid.  To create my own path rather than follow the lead of others.  It takes work, lots of work.  And it takes an incredible amount of courage.  There will be many heartaches along the way.  Intense moments when I doubt myself and think this is just all to much.  But as I keep stepping forward I see the strength I have.  I recognize how far I have come.  I know that these uncomfortable feelings are taking me to places bigger than I ever could have dreamed of. 

I am choosing to be the "uncool" kid.  To use my voice.  To stand in my power.  To not let anyone bring me down.  These are my moments and I can create them how I choose.  I am going to bravely step into the arena and navigate my own path.  

this is your moment

This is your moment
To stand in your light
To be who you always wanted to be
Yes, the time is now
There is no reason to back down
Hide in the corner
Or live in the fear
Right now is your moment to shine
Recognize what is holding you back
Examine it for a brief moment
Then let it go
You do not need to carry around your baggage
You can set it down
All if it
And start again
You can begin
Right now
Yes, this is your moment
Do not let it pass by without you grabbing hold of it
Speak your dreams out loud
Take the leap
Do what it is you have always wanted to to
Right now
It is time to begin
Get going
Make it happen
 

what life will you live?

"You don't choose a life, you live one" ~ The Way

Because you have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring
Sure we make plans
We dream, we wish
But there is no guarantee that you will ever make it to where you want to go
Your road may come to an end sooner than you ever expected
There may be twist and turns you didn't plan for
You may get flipped completely upside down
And have no idea what to do next
This is why you have to live in the moment
Be right here
Take a deep breathe in and appreciate the beauty around you
It could all go away tomorrow
Life as you know it may change forever
It may feel like a stab to your heart
Or bring you down to your knees
And all you can do is get back up
Learn how to navigate this new normal
You cannot count on anything to last forever
Life ebb's and flows
You cannot hold on to anything to tightly
You must carve your own path
Be kind along the way
Appreciate the beauty
And savor the moment
Because this is your one wild and precious life
You are the one who is holding up the pen
You are the one who is writing the story
What will your  next line be?
What life will you live?

the way they believed in you

Sometimes someone else needs to believe in you
Before you can believe in yourself
They tell you what they think you are capable of
And you chuckle inside because you do not see it
But they stand in front of you holding up the mirror
Not letting you give up
And not giving up on you
All you can do is put one foot in front of the other
Following their lead
You feel like you are struggling to keep up
But you keep driving yourself forward
You want to make them proud
You want to show them
That you can do what they think you can
And so you continue to push
Somehow on your own you find your strength
And you don't give up
One foot in front of the other
Staying present in the moment
You dig deep down inside
And you keep on going
Slowly you realize you are doing it
Somehow, someway
You can finally see what they saw in you
And you cling to it
Stepping forward with more confidence and grace
You had it in you this whole time
You just needed someone to help you unearth it
You are so much stronger than you ever thought you were
You know that now
You feel it
Because they believed in you
You now believe in you
And that is a powerful feeling