keep going

red rock canyon

When you feel as if you are standing still
Keep going, keep moving
The world is your oyster
Explore it
Seek out new adventure
Engage in conversation
Make eye contact
Take the long way home
Just keep going
To accomplish anything you have to be strong
Brave
Fierce
You have to have the willingness to take a risk
Dig deep for your courage
Leap
And along the way learn how to fly
Fall, again and again
But always get back up
Keep going
Keep moving
Search for what you desire
Never give up
Hold onto hope
And ask for help along the way
This is your time
Don't let it slip away
Go after your dreams
Just keep on going
 

travel

red rock canyon

“We travel, initially, to lose ourselves; and we travel, next to find ourselves. We travel to open our hearts and eyes and learn more about the world than our newspapers will accommodate. We travel to bring what little we can, in our ignorance and knowledge, to those parts of the globe whose riches are differently dispersed. And we travel, in essence, to become young fools again- to slow time down and get taken in, and fall in love once more.”   Pico Ayer

I love to travel.  Spending time in places I have never been opens up my heart.  Seeing new sights and experiencing new things I become surprised and delighted by what unfolds.  When I travel I have the willingness to risk and not care about looking like a fool.  I will try something new and simply just go for it.  

When I travel I feel as if the entire world is opened up to me and I can be or do anything. The people I encounter see me for who I am in that exact moment.  They do not know my back story.  They do not know the sadness I carry in my heart or how terribly shy I used to be.   They don't know where I am coming from or where I am going.  They  just see me in that moment exactly as I am.  

Travel is a gift.  It brings about a freedom that I can't seem to find at home.  It pushes me past my boundaries, reminds me of how strong I am, and sets me free of any expectations I have been carrying along.  When I travel I learn so much about myself.  

On this past trip I learned that I need to slow down.  When I am somewhere I tend to be in a rush to experience it all.  I don't want to miss a thing and I don't want to waste my time.  But there is so much to see and feel even when we are standing still.  When you walk slowly you experience a place more deeply.  You give yourself the chance to take it in and you tuck into your heart what you want to carry home.  You may even find the right path to pick up your bags.  

This weekends trip reminded me of the time I spent driving cross country with a friend and one of her friends that I had never met before.  It was a trip of a life time.  NJ to CA and then back.  We had the opportunity to visit the most stunning national parks and meet some of the most interesting people. 

On the way out west we stopped in Selena Utah because our bellies were hungry and we needed to fill the car with gas.  We found our way to this store that sold everything one could need in a small town ... pizza, video rentals, balloons, and tuxedo rentals were just a few of the things you could get in this one shop.  We were delighted by this because it was something we never experienced before.  

Another time we stopped for lunch was in Colorado.  We entered a restaurant where the gentleman who sat us at the bar took our order and also cooked our food.  He owned the place and had so many stories to tell us about the area.  He was intrigued by our trip and we were happy to share about our travels.  

Being on the road feels like home to me.  I love the unexpected.  Like crossing four lanes of road because we realize we need to turn right instead of left.  I love having the radio on and singing along to the tunes.  The scenery is ever changing and you just never know what you may encounter.  You see things you will never see at home and meet people you most likely will never see again.  It is an incredible journey filled with hope.  

There is something about the west that pulls me in.  The mountains, the colors, it feels like peace to me.  I am grateful to have so many wonderful memories tucked into my heart.  Watching the sunset at the grand canyon after we decided that seeing the sunset was way more important than putting up our tent properly.  After all we were only staying there one night.  And the great big arches that reached all the way up to the sky.  They were beyond breathtaking.  There were also the moments that you look back on and chuckle like when the vending machine was covered in little bugs and you were hoping for a snack or the time you ran over something big and were grateful that the owner of the car was asleep when it happened.  And the way that you never met him but how often she spoke of him on the journey you felt like you had known him forever.  

Hearing the song The Scientist by Cold Play brings me right back to California and how we  played this song on repeat in the car.  We swam in the ocean for hours in San Diego and never got a chance to taste In-n-Out burger.  But finally after miles of searching we did find a Taco Bell.    

Travel has made me a better person.  It has encouraged me to explore and pushed me to grow.  It has given me opportunity and taught me how to adapt to ever changing situations.  What I like most about traveling is going with the flow.  There is always something new to see and someone new to meet.  Traveling fills my adventurous spirit.  I am so grateful for the many different opportunities that I get to explore new places and see the world from the road.  

For travel is it's own type of tour guide.  When we are open enough to listen it will guide you to your next destination.  Be open to all the road has to teach you. 

what i want you to know

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What I want you to know is that there are moments that I do not know where I am going.  I put one foot in front of the other and just keep moving.  I am unsure of the path ahead of me, but know that I can no longer sit still.  

What I want you to know is that it isn't always easy.  I have stumbled and fallen down more times that you will ever know.  There has been pain, deep deep pain.  Heartache has taken my breathe away and tears have fallen.  But I have survived and I have preserved.  

What I want you to know is that all of my grand plans didn't work out.  There were times when I fell flat on my face.  When others weren't sure what I was doing.  When I made of fool of myself or got lost along the way.  

What I want you to know is that it isn't always easy.  The world isn't going to hand you exactly what you want in a pretty perfect package.  You have to put in the hard work.  You have to try.  And sometimes no matter how hard you try it doesn't work out.  

What I want you to know is that sometimes you will shift courses.  New things will open up to you that you didn't even knew existed and you will be intrigued and enthralled.  You will begin a new journey and you will not know where it is going.  

What I want you to know is that things are always changing.  Nothing stays the same forever.  You have to keep your heart open.  Your feet moving.  And your dreams alive.  

What I want you to know is that along the way you have to give thanks and show gratitude.  You must stay humble and kind.  When you share yourself with others you are doing a service to this world and spreading love.  

What I want you to know is that I never thought that I would be standing where I am today.  But I am here and I am happy.  And life isn't perfect but it is pretty awesome.  And when we appreciate the awesome more of it comes.  

What I want you to know is that you will never get another today, so make it count.  

welcoming this new season

On the east coast a new season is upon us
A new chance to try again
A season of rest
And letting go
A renewal of sorts
Shorter days and chiller nights
Bright colors popping up everywhere
Pumpkins and apple pie
The crispness in the air
And fireside gatherings
It a season to give thanks
To celebrate with those you love
To slow down
And embrace each other just a little bit longer
There is surprise and mystery
Love and kindness
There is a new song to be sung
And new opportunities to embrace
Seek out the adventure
Create your very own journey
Go places you have never go before
See things you have yet to see
Be open to the possibility of it all
And welcome in this new season
With a wide and expansive heart

it is here

it is here

Do you ever feel like the world is writing your story for you.  It is as if you are just going through the motions.  You wake up, head to the shower, dry your hair, get dressed, make lunch for the day, check your email, then head out the door.  It is as if you on on autopilot.  You do not question it, you just move with the actions. 

Your nine to five work get's accomplished and when you arrive home for the evening there is a pile of laundry to get done, dinner to be cooked, some gym time to squeeze in, and before you know it the time has come for you to lay your head back down on the pillow.  You wonder how the time vanished so quickly.  You had big plans for when you got out of work yet for some reason they all slipped away.  

The weekends are different or so you hope.  You try to squeeze in as much as you can. Savor the moments, seek out adventure, finally sit down to write, and spend some time with those you love.  Yes the weekends are what you feel you are living for.  

But what if you could change that?  What if you could shift just a little bit to allow more space in your life to feel your heart light up.  It is here where it begins.  In this ordinary moment on the couch when you feel the time is slipping away.  Yes, right here.  Where you have the choice to do exactly what you are doing or do something that feeds your soul.  

Sometimes making this choice may feel like a big leap and a little bit of an indulgence.  You are sitting next to a pile of laundry how could you possibly say yes instead to going for a walk?  But what if you picked up the pace a little.  Folded the laundry quicker than you usually do by shutting off the TV and just concentrated on the folding.  Would there be a few spare minutes to take a walk around the block?  

And sometimes that is all you need a tiny sliver of time to get you back on track and feed your soul.  It is the smallest moments that can make the biggest impact.  You are the one who chooses what you do with your time.  You can let it slip quietly through your fingers or you can seek out what it is right here, right now that will make you happy.  

The other day I saw this quote online:  "Save the excuses.  It's not about "having" time.  It's about making time.  If it matter, you will make the time."  This stopped me dead in my tracks because all to often I use the excuse that I do not have the time yet I am the one allowing the time to slip through my fingers.  

Years ago I went through a fast food drive through.  At the little intercom I ordered my meal and a coke to go with it.  When I drove around to the window the women working handed me a drink that was red in color.  Very possibly it was a fruit punch, but definitely not a coke.  I kindly asked her if I could get the coke instead as I had order and her response to me was; "I do not have the time!"  I was a bit taken back.  First off how long could it possibly take to fill up another soda glass?  Secondly, that wasn't even what I ordered.  Every time I think of the phrase "I do not have the time" I think of that moment and always chuckle.  

But seeing that quote and remembering that interaction puts it all in a different perspective.  It wasn't that she didn't have the time, she just didn't want to do it.  Just like I alway use the excuse that I do not have the time there is something in me that just doesn't want to do it.  Is it fear?  It is laziness?  It is being distracted by other things?  

The only way the big shifts are going to happen is if we take the small steps toward them.  We cannot live our life on autopilot.  We cannot allow others to dictate what we are doing and when we can do it.  We must carve out even the smallest amounts to time to feed our soul and fill up our well.  

Because it is here, right here where it all begins.  

What small step can you take?  What one little move can you choose?  My one move is going to be to shut off the tv and just concentrate on one thing at a time.  I tend to keep the tv on for background noise then get caught up in what is going on that I never accomplish what I set out to do.  How about you?

giving thanks

There is beauty that surrounds me.  In the four walls of my tiny apartment, there is love.  I am engulfed by goodness, hope, and courage.  A support system to lean on and the opportunity to reach for my dreams.  I am encouraged and guided.  I know that I can spread my wings and try to learn how to fly.  

I am a seeker of beauty, laughter, kindness. I want to fill this world with sunshine and light.  Love notes and feathers found remind me of the beauty in the unexpected and thoughtful connections to those who are here and those who have passed.  

I take time to savor the moment.  To feel the warm sunshine on my skin.  Appreciate the way his hand feels when it is holding mine.  And love the connections that come when we choose to be vulnerable and allow our hearts to be seen.  

I show up in this world with my heart on my sleeve.  Weaving connections from our true stories, even the ones that are difficult to tell.  We all know that life isn't always sparkly and I choose to embrace all the moments. 

I want to live out loud. To leave my mark of kindness and compassion.  I want to encourage others to hold there stories gently, examine them, and tell them.  I want to be a guide for you as you show up the page.  I want to let you know that you aren't alone. 

I want to bring you together with others.  Because it is in community where incredible breakthroughs occur.  There is so much kindness and love in this world.  Compassion for each other stories.  When we are surrounded by this we grow immensely into the person we always wanted to be.  

But most importantly I want to give thanks.  For this life, right here, right now.  It hasn't always been easy.  There have been mountains to climb and pieces to but back together.  It has been a journey filled with incredible emotion and it has all lead me to here.  To this very moment where I sit smiling.  My heart filled with love and gratitude.  

Grateful for it all.