all of you

/

photo taken while driving home and smiling thinking of all of you

Do you know what you guys do to me

Each time a comment appears from you

Or when a card arrives in my mailbox

Do you know how my heart sings

When a simple text messages is sitting in the palm of my hands

Or a little note appears

I sit here smiling

Thinking of all of you

And all the ways you brighten my days

Sometimes when I need it most

When my heart is sad or I just need to smile

One of you will appear, as if you knew

It is amazing how connected we all are to one another

There is no distance to far

for two heart and souls to connect

Words cannot convey this feeling

This heart swelling pride

That sings inside of me

I am a better person because of all of you

I am stronger, braver, and I smile more often

I am happy because I have you guys in my life

Thank you for being my little angels

For watching over me, loving me,

And seeing me

I adore you

I admire you

and I love you

The Truelove

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The Truelove

~David

Whyte

There is faith in loving fiercely

the one who is rightfully yours,

especially if you have

waited years and especially

if part of you never believed

you could deserve this

loved and beckoning hand

held out to you this way.

I am thinking of faith now

and the testaments of

loneliness

and what we feel we are

worthy of in this world.

Years ago in the Hebrides

I remember an old man

who walked every morning

on the grey stones

to the shore of baying seals,

who would press his hat

to his chest in the blustering

salt wind and say his prayer

to the turbulent Jesus

hidden in the water,

and I think of the story

of the storm and everyone

waking and seeing

the distant

yet

familiar

figure

far across the water

calling to them,

and how we are all

preparing for that

abrupt waking,

and that calling,

and that moment

we have to say yes,

except it will

not come so grandly,

so

Biblically

,

but more subtly

and

intimately

in the face

of the one you know

you have to love,

so that when

we finally step out of the boat

toward them, we find

everything

holds

us, and everything confirms

our courage, and if you wanted

to drown you could,

but you don't

because finally

after all this struggle

and all these years,

you don't want to any more,

you've simply had enough

of

drowning

,

and you want to live and you

want to love and you will

walk across any

territory

and any darkness,

however fluid and however

dangerous, to take the

one hand you know

belongs in yours.

I listen and I see YOU

/

I listen to your stories, your heart ache, your tears,

your dreams, your worries, and your fears

I listen to not only what you have to say

but I listen to how you feel

I digest it

Soaking in each

morsel

I listen to what you do not want to say

What you are afraid to say

And what you think you never will say

I listen to that little voice that wants to jump outside of your soul

And open up your eyes to a whole new world of possibility

I listen to the pain that pours out of your eyes,

even when you are not talking about it

And I listen to the emptiness that you feel is inside of you

I listen to everything

But what I see is so different than what you say

I see you

Strong

Brave

Bold

Beautiful

Loving

Tender

Kind

Caring

I see this strong women standing before me

Doing things she never thought she could

Jumping

Flying

Spreading her wings and opening her heart up to the world

I see your soul radiating light

I see your smile guiding you through each day

I see you

All of you

you

/

Always remember

that even when you think

who you are or what you do

does not matter

that it does

It matters to so many people

You touch the lives of others

without even realizing it

every single day

Your smile brings hope to strangers

The kind look in your eyes

makes other not feel so alone

You are a shining star

You radiate a beautiful light

Never forget this

Ever

Life

/

wedding ring

Awhile back I declared to save the only thing I was able to save ~ my life. I set out on an exploration, an excavation into my heart and souls inner desires. I vowed to myself to find out what it is that truly moves me. What really makes me happy. What I stand for. I explored my thoughts,

dredged

up the past, and tried to piece meal it all together.

This declaration was at first stated silently and without me even knowing. It was brewing inside, manifesting slowly and yet my mind could not even grasp the concept. Over time I grew more

conscious

of this thought. I focused on my bravery, the sadness that took hold in eye opening moments, and the happiness that just seemed to unfold before me.

I declared that I wanted to celebrate myself in the form of declaring that I was the one I have been waiting for.

I was the one I have been waiting for. All this time of searching for someone, thinking I needed a partner to lean on, being fearful to step out and take the leap, afraid of knowing who I was. All this time it was right there within me. My courage, my passions, my desires, my wants. The answers to all of the questions I had always asked myself ~ like what made me happy, what did I stand for, what was I passionate about. The whole time the answers were in me just waiting to be discovered, nurtured, and tended to. When you take the time to care for something it grows and when you truly nurture and love it, it blossoms in ways you never thought possible. Mind blowing,

exhilarating

, magical ways.

By taking the time to tend to myself I was growing. I grew strong, brave, and courageous. I put myself out there. I took chances. I trusted that everything was going to work out. I trusted that it was all going to fall into place as it should. And somehow that is exactly what did happen. It all fell into place and it all seems to be working out. Life is such a magical place.