my stars

When I look up

I see

All these sparkling stars

Shining down on me

In my darkest nights

They guide me home

Lead me to saftey

And tuck me in tight

These glistening stars

Hold my hand

Dry my tears

And make sure everything is alright

Spread all across the sky

These stars shine down on me

Always reminding me I am not alone

They shine so brilliantly

Making me smile

Bringing laughter to my heart

And lifting me up

Thank you stars

for looking down on me

For knowing when I needed you

Even though I never said a word

Thank you for holding the space

Letting me just be

And thank you for not letting me lose my way

I do not know what I would do without all of you!

feelings

Ramapo

Reservation

The writing is the easy part. My hand moves easily across the paper. I know how to shape my letters effortlessly. Writing, that is easy. The difficult part is the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I try to put down on the paper. How do I do them justice?

How do I express in words the way my stomach is filled with this buzzing feeling when you look into my eyes? It is like a wave of happiness pouring over me inside. Is there a word that can be used to help you understand this and feel it the way I do?

How do I put onto paper the safe feeling I felt standing in your kitchen engaged in conversation? Thoughts and feelings moving back and forth effortlessly between us. Such a simple thing, yet

evoking

so much within me.

How do I even begin to explain the sensation that grabbed a hold of my entire body when our lips pressed up against each other standing in your doorway? The softness that began with that simple little touch and spread out to ever limb in my body. How do I put into words that I did not want that moment to end?

How do you write out the incredible feeling of truly being seen for who you are? The feeling of being appreciated and valued? How do you explain how that makes you feel?

You see, writing is the easy part. Pouring out my feelings and emotions and having you understand them the way I feel them, that is the tough part. How do I do that?

Connect

Manzanita, Oregon

I have been trying to come up with my

word for 2010

.

The one word I want to manifest for the entire year.

The one word that speaks to my heart and calls directly to me.

After January 1st I struggled to find this word.

I felt lost and unsure of myself.

But today I am standing on a more solid ground.

Connect is my word for 2010

Connect with myself

Get back to who I am and put myself out there in the world

Connect with nature

Feel the inspiration that is out there and let it come into my soul

Connect with my family

Get to know them on a more intimate level

Connect with a creative tribe

Dig knee deep into inspiration and be truly seen

Connect with love

Feel what it really means to be loved

Connect

What is your word for 2010?