washing over me

I was sinking into the unknown
Losing my way
Falling off course
Standing in the middle of despair, fear, and uncontrollable feelings
Trying to make sense of it all

I had no idea which way to turn
Was there a right course of action
Was one micro movement going to shift everything
Time spinning quickly
Getting thrown back into a past life

Where was I headed
What choice was I to make
Did I have any control over this
How would I ever know if I made the right one
Lost, lost, so very lost

I took to the streets
Long walks
Staring up at the stars
Allowing my inner light to guide me home
Finding my way back to center

And now I stand here
Neither moving forwards or backwards
Just still
In the moment
Letting it all wash over me