living through the feelings

Since returning

The connection between my mind and my pen has been a struggle

I have tried lining words up to form a sentence

Express my feelings

Release what is swirling around inside of me

But nothing is coming out

I am in a period of transition

Of letting go

and opening myself up to the world around me

Not holding anything to tightly

But allowing things to come in and go out

It is not an easy path to travel down

Being such a deep feeler

It can be difficult to give freedom to all of these emotions

Allowing them to just be what they are

Without holding on

I am bravely stepping forward

Through the darkness

And the questions

Digging deeper into the strength that is within me

Revealing pieces of my heart with each step

I know I must live boldly

Without fear

Planning my next adventure

And standing tall in the uncomfortableness of life

Reaching, stretching, growing

L.O.V.E

Can you feel it swirling around

It is deep within you

Flowing out of you

Hugging you gently

And bringing a smile to your face

Love

It is every where

In the friendly hello from lady who works at the library

The kind smile from the gentleman filling up your gas tank

The conversation between you and your customers at work

Love

Wrapping its arms around you

Lifting you up so you feel like you are soaring

Making you laugh

And opening you up to fully appreciating life

Love

You can see it in everything

Feel it in each encounter you have

Leaving a mark on your heart

As you venture through each day

Love

Arriving in the palm of your hand

Felt through friendships where you are deeply seen

Memories being created with family

Helping you to keep moving forward

Love

A feeling so deep

Bringing so much joy

Support and strength

Always circling around you

Love, do you feel it?

brought back home

It is a place I love going to

Spending hours upon hours

Writing, reading, soaking in the goodness of just being there

But now every time I walk through the doors

The feeling is not the same

Sadness fills me up inside

As I feel your presence within these walls

I know you are not there

But still I feel you, so strongly

Today when I went inside

I had to leave quickly

The feeling of you being there was so powerful

It is a funny thing that can happen with a place

Holding onto your hopes

When you are trying to let them go

Exposing feelings

That you are trying to forget

And resurfacing memories

That you are trying to leave behind

Today I as flooded with those thoughts

Brought back to your smile

The day we met

The words you said

The moments we shared together

It made my heart sad

To look back

And feel it all again

I am blessed

Sometimes there are no words that can describe a feeling

No string of letters that can explain the love that is in my heart

I am feeling so very blessed for...

... creating something magical with two stunning souls

... time spent in the sunshine

... walking along a path, and finding interesting things along the way

... dreams coming true ~ one right after the other

... beautifully honest conversation

... inspiring women who encircle me with love

... good friends who take me to the airport and pick me up

... delicious food

... dinner time around the table

... candlelight

... space

... love

... learning new things

... seeing friends again 

... flying through the sky to arrive, just as I am

... looking deep inside myself

... dreaming up new ideas

... connecting with others

... supporting and encouraging one another

... tear falling belly hurting type of laughter

... little messages arriving in the palm of my hand

... knowing that I was missed while I was away

... sharing my stories when I returned home

... getting teased

... soaking in the beauty of life

This list could go on and on ... what a great thing.  

What are you feeling blessed for today?

to be true

There are many uncertainties in this world

But there are also some things that I know to be true

Like....

*  Good friends can lift you out of the rubble, carry you to safety, and remind you that everything will be ok

*  Family is a vital part of living

*  Sunshine breathes new life into the darkest moments

*  Laughter heals the soul

*  Connections between individuals is what keeps people moving forward

*  We must always move forward

*  Anything is possible if you are willing to put in the hard work it takes to achieve it

*  One of the bravest thing you can do is love someone with your whole heart

*  Sometimes risks are worth taking

*  Nothing in this world will last forever, but while they are happening they can be life altering

moving forward

I stand here

Observing the world

And the beauty around me

Unsure of which way to step next

But knowing in my heart I must continue on

The path is long

Filled with many unexpected turns

With each new direction

I gain something I did not even realize I was missing

I cannot stand in one place for to long

I must move forward

Stepping into the unknown

Bravely putting myself out there