Summer Memories: Jack Johnson Concert

I love spending time with my family. Whenever we are together I laugh hysterical. So hard in fact that tears fall from my eyes. Every time I am with them I am happy and overcome with love.

This summer we boarded the train and headed into NYC to see Jack Johnson play at MSG. The entire evening was wonderful. Laughter filled the train. Brian and I practiced for the mud run on the train station stairs. And hearing Jack Johnson play was magical. I love that we all enjoy his music and take the time to go out and see him.

During the last song I stood there amongst my family,

Better Together

was being played, and I closed my eyes attempting to capture the beauty of the moment in my mind forever. As a family we are Better Together. I am so blessed to have each of them in my life.

Summer Memories: Macys Fireworks

I had nothing planned to celebrate July 4th. I was just going to let the day unfold and see where it took me. Christian and I spent the morning riding around town on our bicycles. It was a hot one. Which is perfect weather for me but definitely not perfect weather for everyone. I had a blast on my bicycle and was so proud of far Christian rode especially in the heated conditions we were under.

On the spur of the moment we decided to head in to see the Macys Fireworks. Off we went. Backpack packed with snacks, drinks, and uno. We got front row spots right on the water on the NJ side. We spent all day playing games, talking, laughing, soaking in the sunshine and each others company. When nightfall came we both watched in amazement as the fireworks filled the sky with the NYC skyline as its backdrop. It was a spectacular show.

I was so happy to be right there in that moment and sharing it with Christian. After the fireworks ended we let the crowd disperse as we sat and talked. Once tiredness crept upon us we headed back home smiling from ear to ear. It was an incredible day.

What a wonderful summer memory to be engrained upon my heart.

Summertime Memories

The summer has come to a close. Not with a bang, but rather with a quiet solitude. Which somehow seems to be exactly as it should.

This was a good summer for me. Filled with lots of family time. Laughter. Fun. Swimming in the ocean. Swimming in the pool. Sand between my toes. Fireworks. Watching volleyball. Lots and lots of sunshine. Riding my bicycle. And going on fun adventures. Just to name a few. I created many amazing memories and have such wonderful things to look back on and smile about.

Thank you dear universe for giving me this precious gift this summer. Thank you for cracking me open. Making me see myself. Learn a lot about who I am. Thank you for opening me up to fully experience unconditional love. A type of love that can only come from family. Family love is like no other. It is always there, especially Belthoff Family type of Love. We can overcome anything together. That is a true blessing that cannot be overlooked.

As summer comes to a close I would like to take the time to look back on some of my favorite summertime memories. So that is what I am going to do this week. I hope you will join me and share some of your favorite memories that you created this summer as I share some of mine with you.

Letting go

I show up here

With pen in hand

Ready to let go

Let go of feeling like it is my fault

Let go of thinking I have any control

Let go of the anger about how it all unfolded

Let go of the the way things are now

Let go of the whole ordeal

You are not the person I knew

I thought I was going to be the one to struggle

With the end of us and the beginning of something new

But it is not me who is struggling

I am stronger than I thought

I am secure in who I am

I am standing on solid ground

And I never even realized it until now

Yes this does have something to do with me

But only with a title I was given for a brief moment in time

It is nothing personal

I have memories of who you were

Today I only recognize that person for brief moments in time

Every other moment you are a stranger

So I am letting go

I was and always will be respectful

I handled those moments in time

With grace and dignity

It is not about me

It never has been

And it never will be

I just let go

sleep

Dear Nighttime,

Can you please be so kind and let me sleep. My body and mind need the rest. I would like to sleep through the night without waking up. I cannot keep running around like this during the day without some rest at night.

Please dear nighttime help me out. I would love to dream sweet dreams and wake up feeling rested and refreshed.

Thank you nighttime for taking this into consideration.

Love,

Jennifer

Ready

My days have been hectic

My mind running in every direction

Coming to dead ends

Not sure where to turn

Spinning in circles

Feeling hopeless, lost and sad

Emotions swirled around inside of me

I could not seem to calm them

Or hold them long enough to examine them

The other night

As I curled under my covers

Just about to lie down

I felt something

It was a blue glow

Right there in front of me

It felt so real I could see it with my eyes

A feeling of comfort washed over me

A smile came to my face

I felt calm and at peace

The light whispered to me

"You are ready now, you are ready now"

I am not exactly sure what it was

Or maybe I was dreaming

But since that night I feel calm

Relaxed into myself

An inner peace is holding me gently

Each time I close my eyes

The light is there

Reminding me that

I am ready