Strangers

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Sitting on a plane

Sadness washing over me

Writing my thoughts away in the darkness

Not even stopping to turn on the light

Not wanting to shed all of this in the brightness

Music in my ears

My thoughts coming out through my fingertips

Tears welling up in my eyes

The stranger next to me catches my attention

Let's me know it is ok to turn on the light

I am not sure I am ready for that, not sure I ever will be

We begin talking

I begin to not feel so alone up here in the sky

Two strangers coming together

Traveling alone, yet coming together.  

The sun is my guide...

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The sun is shining and the air is washing a light breeze over me.  
I smile
Whoever thought I would be here?

Before I was filled with so many harsh emotions.
I had gone through an incredible storm,
and it has just begun to calm down.

The sun is smiling as if to say...
You are ok, and You are where you need to be.
Embrace this moment.

I look around, taking it all in.
The leaves on the trees, the clouds in the sky, 
The feel of the hot sun on my skin.

All that surrounds me is healing me.
Enveloping me in a swirl of love and strength.
Refueling my soul for whatever lies ahead.  

The sun is my guide.
She holds me gently,
and has lead me to this safe haven. 

The Light!

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Sometimes I get these moments.  These "ah-ha" moments when I feel the switch in my head turn on.  The light bulb goes on, the spark ignites the fire.  I am not sure how it happens, or why it happens but I am really glad that I am in tune to it happening.  I feel it taking place.  Normally it is on the right side of my head.  Which brain is that?  It happened today.  The switch went off.

 To often we concentrate on the sadness.  The mistakes, the things we have done wrong, or wish would have happened.  But take a look around.  Look at everything that has happened for you.  Look at all the good things and throw away the regrets.  Throw away the mistakes.  Throw away the hurt and anger.  So much happiness

encompasses

our every day.  Embrace that with open arms.  

I need to go back to making my list at night of what made me happy that day.  A short list comprising of only three things.  Out of twenty four hours in a day it should be easy to find three things that made me smile, made my heart skip a beat, made my life worth living.  

Three Things I am Grateful for Right Now...

1.  My opportunity at my job

.  It has been an amazing chance to gain experience, meet new people, and hopefully get hired.

2.  Having the opportunity to live on my own.  I have the chance to explore myself, prove to myself I can do it, and learn what really moves me and makes me happy.

3.  The

opportunity

to meet a new friend.  Laugh, smile, and have the chance to take a trip.  Memories being created.  

The Middle

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"Hey, don't write yourself off yet.

It's only in your head you feel left out

or looked down on.

Just try your best, try everything you can.

And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of this ride

Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.

You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.

Live right now."

~The Middle, Jimmy Eat World