morning on the dock

One of the most magical things about Squam Arts Workshops is gathering on the dock after a day of creating.  The dock provides a safe haven to share your stories from the day and do a bit of show and tell on what you created.  It is a place where hearts open up, light shines through, and you are seen for exactly who you are.  It is a place of love and expansion and one of the best places to gather.  

Since it is not possible to gather on the dock every single day Elizabeth Duvivier {founder of Squam} has found a way to bring these conversations and space to wherever it is you are in this moment.  I am grateful to have had the opportunity to chat with Elizabeth for her weekly podcast Morning on the Dock.  We chat about he Love Notes Postcard Project, writing, running, and navigating the grief after losing my mom last year.  

I invite you to grab a cup of tea  and settle in for a little bit of heart opening conversation.  

brave journaling

My journal holds my stories and the inner weavings of my heart.  It knows everything about me and gives me space to bravely show up and spill open.  I can tell anything to those pages and it will soak it up.  There is no judgment or talking back, just an open space that I can fall deeply into.  

I have been journaling ever since I was young.  Scribbling down thoughts about my crushes and writing about my deepest fears and dreams.  There is no story that is off limits.  I tell the truth, the whole messy heart wrenching truth.  I work through the darkness and come out on the other side a little bit lighter.  

When I was younger I thought there was something wrong with me because I struggled to form sentences when I was going through something deep and emotional.  I would try to piece together the words but they never came out right.  During one difficult moment my boyfriend at the time saw me struggling deeply so he urged me to pull out my notebook and write.  I wrote and wrote getting it all out of me.  Once I was finished writing we sat down and talked about it and I could actually form sentences and speak, it was incredible.  Showing up on the page first gave me the opportunity I needed to process and understand exactly what I was feeling.  Once I had that space cleared I could articulate what I was going through and we were able to have a really good conversation about it.  

It was in that moment I learned there was nothing wrong with me, I just needed time to process what I was feeling.  The page gives me this opportunity to show up and say everything that is in my heart.  I can write about my deepest and darkest fears.  I can write about the things I feel others may judge me on.  I can write and write.  Once I get it all out of me my head is clear and I am able to have a discussion about it.  

The page is my best friend.  It is the place I turn to first.  It is where I process all of my feelings and figure out my next steps.  My writing is messy.  There are incomplete sentences and misspellings.  There are cross outs, times where I begin again, and other moments where I stop half way through.  It is raw, real, and beautiful.  It is exactly how I feel in that moment. It is my heart spilled onto the page.  

I am grateful to have this space to turn to. Grateful that it allows me the opportunity to be brave.  It is always there waiting for me and I carry it around with me wherever I go because I never know when an emotion, feeling or story will need to be told.  It is my security blanket in a world of uncertainty.  

Yes, journaling is how I come home to myself time and time again. 

Journaling is one of my self care practices.  It is the thing I turn to time and time again.  There may be long stretches where I do not show up, but I know that my journal is always there waiting for me with wide open arms.  

My Brave Journaling class is back for another installment and I couldn't be happier.  It has been incredible to see the way other individuals open up to the page and dive on in.  From first hand experience I know that journaling is healing and seeing that healing take place in others is pure magic.  

This class is for YOU if you are:

  • Interested in self-exploration and learning how to use writing as a tool to help you heal and dream
  • Looking to unearth your stories
  • Wanting to learn how to see the page as a friend and not an intimidating blank space
  • Looking to learn how to write from a place from a place of honesty and compassion
  • Curious about writing

First time journalers and seasoned writers are welcomed.  

I invite you to join me for 21 days of brave journaling where together we will show up and let our stories spill out onto the page.  

Journaling will:

  • Provide you a space to tell your stories
  • Help you gain confidence in your voice 
  • Help you to become more present
  • Guide you into tuning into your feelings
  • Provide you the opportunity to release the stories you have been carrying around for far too long
  • Awaken your inner spark
  • Allow you the opportunity to write from a place of compassion, free of judgement

Class begins February 21st and runs through March 12th and for the very first time I will be offering the opportunity to get a session of mentoring along with the class.  I am beyond excited about this opportunity and the chance to work one on one.  I know that journaling can feel like a very lonely experience at times and through the mentoring session we will be able to connect and work through anything that comes up for you.  

Click HERE to learn more about Brave Journaling!  

I hope to see you in class!  If you have any questions feel free to leave a note in the comments or drop me a message at jbelthoff@gmail.com

 

 

happy notes

Gratitude is a very important part of my self care practice.  I have tried to keep a gratitude journal but was never very good at showing up to it each day.  When I would remember to write in it I would see how long ago I was there and feel discouraged for not sticking with it.  Then the incredible idea for a happiness jar passed through my feed from the wonderful Elizabeth Gilbert.  It was simple -- one jar and tiny slips of paper.  Each day you write one thing that made you happy and drop it into the jar.  Easy peasy!  

This was the perfect solution for me because if I missed a day I never noticed and therefore my inner critique never got the chance to jump in and speak negative words.  I definitely missed many days but my jar still filled up with so many wonderful memories.  Simple moments that make this life extraordinary.  Like:

  • Sharing sushi with Dustin
  • A fun evening at the car show, lots of laughs, plenty of shine, and good people all around
  • The sweet smell of wild orange as she rubbed it on my forehead and shoulders while in shavasana

Simple everyday moments that make this life extraordinary.  What a love about the happiness jar is how ordinary the moments are, yet they fill my heart with so much love!  

Happiness Jar

I have taken the time to read through each one of my happy moments from 2015.  It was fun to go back and read about moments that I forgot about.  I was also able to see how much happiness there was even during such a tragic time.  Each happy moment is filled with love, connection, and so much goodness.  

The jar is now empty and ready for a brand new year of happy.  I am excited to continue this tradition.  I usually write out my note before I slip into bed.  It is the perfect way to end the day.  

If you are interested in doing this I encourage you to go for it.  Any jar and slips of paper will do.  One thing I do recommend is including the date on each note.  This way when you look back you know exactly the day it happened.  You can begin a happiness jar any time of the year, it doesn't have to happen on January 1st.  And if you miss a day or a bunch of days, no big deal ... just pick up wherever you are.  Fill that jar with loads of happiness.  

the notebook will save you

It is your notebook that will save you time and time again.  Yes, the blank page providing you space to spread out, dream, and release.  It is your notebook that catches your words and holds your deepest thoughts.  It heals you and helps guide you home.  

It is the friend you can always count on.  Providing you the opportunity to go back and see how far you have come.  It also gives you a place to work out where you want to go.  There are never any judgments.  Just space to grow.  

Carry you notebook with you.  It is there for you any time you need it.  A new blank page like a clean slate, ready to catch any story you throw at it.  Gravitate towards the words.  Be thankful for this resource.  

Your notebook is a place to spill you heart.  To be vulnerable and be seen.  It is a moment for quiet reflection and a chance to write the scary story that your heart longs to tell.  It is love and deep emotion. A paragraph of meandering and one sentence that tells the whole story.  It is in the pages of your notebook were you will find yourself time and time again.

Writing is a blessing and it is something that you can do.  You write a grocery list my dear, you are a writer.  It is a string of words together on the page.  A moment, a thought, a sentence, sometimes just one single word.  There is no right and there is no wrong.  It is open and forgiving.  

Writing is a courageous act that allows your heart space to breathe.  There are moments when you aren't sure where or how to begin but it doesn't have to be so hard because where you begin may not be where you end up.  When you grant yourself permission and allow your heart to do the writing your honest story emerges.  The one you most need to tell.  

Writing is a gift you give yourself.  

I invite you to join me for 21 days of journaling where together we will show up on the page and write from a place of tenderness.  Grant yourself permission to practice and allow whatever comes up space to breathe.  

Directly to your inbox you will receive:

  • Writing prompts to nudge the pen forward
  • Exercises to stretch you
  • Inspirational poetry and quotes
  • Gentle reminders to keep on writing

writing prompts

It was a moment unlike many others
I stood on the edge of a big decision
And I said yes

It was not hard to make the choice
Staying still no longer felt possible
I had to break free, I had to run

It was terrifying and thrilling
I had no idea where I was going
All I knew was that I had to keep moving forward

Here I stand on the other side of despair
Head held high
Heart open and free

Here I stand stronger, braver, open
Ready to take on challenges that come my way
Wiser for all that I have gone through

Here I stand proud of myself for taking the risk
Soaking in the beautiful life
And navigating my own journey


There are many times when the blank pages stares at me and I am not sure where to begin.  It can feel intimidating even when I know there are stories in my heart that need to be written.  This is when I turn to writing prompts.  There are two different ways that I do this:

1.  Words to begin with.  

n the poem above the words I began with were "It was..." and "Here I stand..."  I merged these two prompts into one poem because they felt right to be paired together.   I have a bunch of words to begin with stashed away in a note on my evernote account. As I come across more I jot them down for a rainy day.  

Begin a list of your own.  Tuck it some where that you can easily access it.  When you are stuck on what to write turn to that list and choose one.  If you still feel stuck pick another.   Remember, there are no rules.  

Having a jumping off point make it so much easier to begin.  The blank page feels less intimidating and I never know where the prompt will lead me.  You may think that you are going to head in one direction when you first read it and then all of the sudden your pen takes you on a completely different journey.  Be open to what bubbles up.  

2.  One word

Words speak deeply to me.  Some of my favorite words are serendipity, gratitude, open, wild, intriguing, action.  I have taken all of my favorite words and written them down on individual index cards.  When I am feeling stuck I pull one out and write whatever comes up from that word.  It feels like a game and gives me a purpose. 

What are some of your favorite words?  Make a list of them or create separate cards for each.  Take it one step further and write your own definition of each word.  Not the definition from the dictionary, but what the word actually means to you.  We all know the definition of words, but we seldom realize what power and meaning a specific word can hold for another.  


Having these different prompts makes it easier for you to jump into writing.  Go ahead, give it a try.  Do you have a specific prompt that you love?  Share it in the comments so that we can all give it a whirl.  

finding the perfect notebook for your writing

This is my notebook.  It goes with me everywhere.  You will find it  inside my bag or tucked under my arm if I don't have my bag with me.  I write in the car, outside on my front porch, in bed, at my kitchen table, at the local coffee shop, in parks, at the mall, at the doctors office . . .  the list could go on and on.  Writing has saved my life.  I know that is a very bold statement, but it is true.  I turn to the page almost every day as a way to release, work things out, dream and scheme.  I am happy when I am alone with my notebook and a pen and even happier when I am sitting outside using these tools.  

I have always been interested in the written word.  When I was very young I found the card more intriguing than the birthday present.  I would ride my bike or walk across town to spend hours at the library.  And when I tried my hand at writing my own words I was in hook line and sinker.  I would write for hours in my journal scribbling my own inner dialogue or jotting down quotes that made me smile and then stuffing that journal deep underneath my bed so no one could find it.  

It was in my journal where I felt most at home for a long time.  I was able to write down anything and was never once judged or laughed at.  It was a private conversation between me and the page that no one else ever had to see unless I shared it.  Having this space gave me an opportunity to work through a lot of the struggles that I encountered.  

Once I began journaling I never stopped. It became a life line for me and is still a tool that I use today. My notebook is always with me there to catch any thought that pops up.  It is a very personal space and one that I cherish.  As I turn to the page to spill my heart and soul it continues to save me again and again.  

You do not need to consider yourself a "writer" to reap the benefits of journaling.  It is a very personal practice and I encourage you to give it a try.  For the next few Wednesday's I invite you to join me here as I will be sharing different ways and tips to get you diving into your own daily personal writing practice.  

First up:  Choosing a Notebook

Choosing a notebook is a very personal choice.  There are many out there to choose from and you are guaranteed to find one that suits you, however it may take some trial and error.   

First begin by deciding if you want lined or unlined paper.  I am a lined journal type of girl because without lines my writing becomes extremely slanted and I do not like the way that looks on the page.  However, your journal process may included sketches or art along with your writing and the lines may feel constricting to you.  If you aren't sure experiment with one and see how you like it.   Keep in mind that your practice will evolve as you dig into it and what you were drawn to today may shift over time.  

Next think about the size that feels good to you.  When thinking about size take into consideration where you will be writing.  If you are like me and will be tucking your notebook into your bag and carrying wherever you go a larger notebook may become to much.  Take into account the size of bag you use and what notebook would fit nicely in there.  Also think about what space you feel most comfortable writing on.  Do you long for space to spread out in or is a small pocket size notebook just thing that pulls you in?  Remember, if you aren't comfortable writing in it you will never use it.  

Lastly consider how plain or fancy you want your notebook to be.  Does a beautiful cover draw you in and make you feel like your writing is more intentional?  If so go for it.  You can find many stunning notebooks at the bookstore will all different types of paper feel to them.  However, maybe writing in something so fancy feels intimidating.  You may feel restricted to write in it because you do not want to mess up the beautiful book.  If so go for something that feels more in your comfort zone.  I  am drawn immensely to beautiful notebooks but for my writing I use a composition notebook.  I was drawn to composition notebooks because of their size, how easily they are to get, and their price point.  I quickly write through notebooks and purchasing fancy ones just doesn't fit well with my budget.   Plus they are no longer just the black and white marble covers that you remember as a child.  Now you can find them with many different awesome options, plus they are all the same size so they stack nicely for me when I pull them all together.  

Remember you have to do what feels right to you.  It needs to be something that you are comfortable with and drawn to so that you want to write it in.  Consider how the notebook and paper feels in your hand.  Don't struggle to much with the decision because you can always get another one if what you choose doesn't work for you.  See what you have around your house.  There may even be a notebook that you haven't used or only used a couple of pages from tucked away somewhere.  Pull that one out and begin there.  

Are you ready, go ahead . . . find the notebook that works for you!  Share below in the comments what your favorite notebook is.  What you love may be just what someone else has been searching for.