ready

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Standing at the edge of the oceans tide I knew in my heart what I had to do.  I had looked at this same ocean many times over the course of my life, but the sun never shone down on it like this before.  The tides were shifting, gently removing pieces from my heart.  Pulling out the moments I was unable to forgive myself for.  Releasing them into the vast ocean.

As I stood on the edge time slipped away.  The sun rising brilliantly overhead as if to great me and let me know it was all going to be ok.  It was my time to step boldly into life.  Stop apologizing and understating the passions that moved my feet to dance.

The dark pieces of my story were woven with the light.  Creating a beautiful glow of calmness.  Each of these moments were necessary for me to fully exist as I am today.  Gratitude for both fills me up.

The ocean sings me a lullaby.  Graciously taking my fears and heaviness.  I stand with my feet deeply rooted in the sand.  The sun shining brilliantly on my face.   This is my chance to create my one and only life and I am going to do it.  Each day, little by little I will write my story, dance my dance, and show up in this beautiful world ready for the next journey.

Mondo Beyondo

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It is that time of year again

Time to dream BIG

Let it all out

Put them onto paper

Give your dreams a chance to speak

No dream is to small, silly, or to big

All dreams need to be heard

Time to set them into motion

Send them out into the universe

Say them out loud

Pick up your pen

Open up your heart and mind

And begin writing

List out all of those wild dreams you have

**teaching, **traveling to Bora Bora, **riding my bicycle cross country

Reach high

Go for it

Dream BIG

It is amazing what can unfold when you put it out there

When you let the universe know exactly what is calling to your heart

Little things happen

Seeds are planted

And somehow your dreams come true

I was skeptic at first to

But believe me

Some of my wildest dreams on my mondo beyondo list have come true

And really, what do you have to lose?

So pick up that pen and get writing

If you aren't sure how to start

Check out the

Mondo Beyondo online class

It is all about dreaming big

Andrea Scher

and

Jen Lemen

will guide you through

Opening your heart and

Giving your dreams a voice

And each year you will want to write a new list

Great things happen when you put your dreams out their

Happy dreaming!

christmas 2011

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Gathered together with family and loved ones

An entire weekend of celebration

Rides inside of a suitcase

Laughing

Surprises at the door

Cheering on the Giants

More laughing

Unwrapping gifts all at once

Special presents under the tree

A delicious breakfast feast

Unwrapping gifts one at a time

Cousins gathered together

Singing

Laughing even harder

Memories created

Smiles shining from faces

Laughter filling the air

A beautiful Christmas weekend

release

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I was looking forward to releasing all that no longer served me from the minute I read about it on

Pixie's blog

.  What a perfect way to end the year and to let go off all that I have been carrying around.  I do not have a fire place or all the beautiful materials that Pixie created her bundles with.  But I had a piece of paper, a pen, a silver bowl, a lighter, a loving boyfriend who so willingly joined in, and an intention.

After many long working hours we sat outside beneath the awning on the deck as the rain trickled down.  The cold air waking me up each of us sat with our thoughts.  Quietly we let the pen pull the words from deep inside.  Dredging them up and giving them a voice.  We let it all spill out.

Tears filled my eyes as the pen pulled out these feelings...I am not good enough to be a teacher...The inner struggles of taking the next step in getting my writing out there....And letting go of the darkness I have been carrying on my shoulders.

It felt so freeing to let them each speak as I wrote them down.  He lit his piece of paper first, then mine.  It was beautiful watching them each burn.  The smoke rose into the air taking all of those words with it. The fears, the struggles, the darkness.  All of it drifted away from us.  He put his arm around me and pulled me in close.

Doing this with him was beautiful.  I am able to stand in my own shoes each day wearing the clothes that are truly mine, and he stands besides me, loving me.  I love that he took the time to write his own thoughts down and released them from deep inside.  Everything about that was beautiful.

I feel lighter now.  Ready to welcome 2012.  I also feel incredibly grateful for all the adventures I was on in 2011.  It was a beautiful L.O.V.E filled year and I  feel like the luckiest girl alive.  I stand here with my palms open welcoming the light.

This will definitely become a yearly tradition on each Winter Solstice.  Releasing, reflecting, and stepping into the light.  Thank you Pixie, for opening my world to this beautiful ceremony.