Dealing with the aftermath is never easy
Speaking aloud the fears I am navigating through
Scares me more than the fears themselves
Feeling isolated and alone
As love swirls around me
Trying so hard to engulf me in it's essence
Sharing our stories is what it is all about. Sharing deeply who we are, the struggles we face, the roads we travel. Sharing our dreams, our heartache, our insecurities. Sharing all of it. This is what is truly magical. It takes strength to show up exactly as we are. Five pounds heavier than we wished, dust on the floorboards, fears of not having anything of value to add. But we show up none the less with our hearts on our sleeve. And we are seen for exactly who we are. You with your wide expansive heart, your wise business sense, your adventurous spirit, and your quiet wisdom. Love, pure love swirling around as paint get whisked onto paper and things get glued down. Hearts opening, truths revealing themselves, and supportive love holding everyone up. Realizations unfolding that we are all the same and we all are fearful of something. Each of us sees that we are our own harshest critiques. But as we gather we hold up the mirror for one another. Reflecting back the beauty that we see in each other. This is magic of gathering. Sharing stories, making art, laughing, crying, and showing up.
I have been busy over here
Settling in
Navigating my path
Finding where it all falls together
The sun is shining deep in my heart
A smile goes from ear to ear
I have a little dance in my step
And a song in my head
It is a good place to be
Where are you these days?
What has been shifting in your world?
It was the small spaces she had to carve out
The ones specifically meant for herself
A trip to the coffee shop
A stroll around the pond
A tiny alter deep inside her closet
It was these sacred spaces that she needed
To keep herself aligned
To continue moving forward
Merging together with another requires some thought
Care and attention to detail
The journey of each others hearts cannot be lost
They must be taken into deep consideration
She knew she had to create these spaces for herself
There are some things she cannot compromise on
And although he might not understand it
He respects this sacred ground
He is happy to see her smiling
Dancing around the room as if she were a child
This brings delight to both of them
As together they each soak in their own sacred space
It was the past he was most determined to forget
Storing it under lock and key
Then throwing the key away
Hoping that it would stay hidden in the dark forever
She wondered what he was hiding from
Why he did not want to face it
She wondered what scars lay deep below the surface
Not given adequate attention to heal
She knew well the struggle it was to face the past
Accept the decisions that had been made
Choosing to forgive mistakes
Then step openly into the future
She knew the tug of war that went on inside of her
Before she opened up her own locked box
She was grateful she found the key
Amazed she had the courage
She knows it is his own battle to fight
But she just wants to see him happy
Free from inner demons
Smiling widely from deep inside
She wanted to make a wish
Closing her eyes
Transporting herself to a different time
Another moment
When things were more settled
Her heals dug firmly in the ground
But she knew herself better
She knew that her wishes were only that, wishes
She knew she would have to go through the struggle
Take the difficult path
It was always that way with her
And she knew that
Along her journey she learned so much
Patience, kindness, love
Showing up and wearing her heart on her sleeve
She learned about being vulnerable
And saying she knew she just needed kindness
She learned how to speak from her heart
And now she stands in limbo
With half her life here
And the other half there
Dancing between the two
Placing her things gently
Not wanting to disrupt the flow of life
She knows how to blend into the background
She knows how to disappear
But this time things are different
He wants to know how she is feeling
He doesn't want to see her cry
He wants them both to be happy
She is no longer dancing alone
She no longer has to step into the darkness
Afraid of what will be waiting for her when she turns on the light
She comes home to someone
Who loves her and holds her close
And together they step into the future
open your heart & share your story
Hello I'm Jennifer! A writer, podcaster and heart-centered guide. I believe in the power of the written word and am here to guide you in opening your heart.
