Crossroads

Caught at a crossroads

Not sure which way to turn

Take the familiar route

The one I traveled down before

The one where I know most of the roads

Can always find my way home

Or jump deep into the unknown

And find a world completely unfamiliar

Lost at times

Struggle through the uncomfortable

So much possibility lies within the two

So different they are

Have I grown to much to stay with the familiar

Will I feel more lost there than through the struggle of the unknown

My heart is torn

My feet are tired

My mind is can't make itself up

the only way I know how

I open up to the world

Showing my vulnerable pieces

Doing this enables me to connect more deeply with others

It brings me closer to them

Gives me a chance to feel and be free

It is a beautiful thing

There were moments in my life when I was deep in the fire

Pushed down into the gutter

My heart torn to shreds

Dark skies covering my world

There were moments I wasn't sure if I would make it

But I always did

The hurt doesn't stop me

The pain that was there doesn't hold me back

I keep pushing forward

Holding my heart in the palm of my hands

I share my most vulnerable pieces

I am not afraid to take a risk

Show my emotions

Feel the world

I stand deeply in the unknown

My past does not dictate my future happiness

I let go

Releasing that which no longer serves me

I raise my head up towards the sun

Wishing for the best

And taking the leap

One may think this is a dangerous way to live

But it is the only way I know how

Risking my heart

Daring to dream

Feeling my way through the world

the path I have been walking

I have not shown up here in awhile

And I am not really sure where I have been

Writing is my landing place

Where I show up to just be

Putting everything on the page that comes to mind

But my creative juices have seemed to come to a grinding halt

I have been wrapped up in work

Pouring my creativity into Power Point animations

I need to shift

I need to feed my creative fire

Let it shine brightly

Continue to put words to paper

And photograph the world around me

I hope to show up here more often

And share with you the musings from my soul

step into the light

Do not be fearful of stepping into the light

Making mistakes

Moving forward

Pushing yourself a little harder than you thought you could go

You are so much stronger than you realize

You deserve to shine

The world is your blank canvas to paint on

And it wants to hear the songs you sing

This holding back does not serve you

You need to let go

Break free

Bust a move and boogie

You are not always going to get it right

And that is ok

But you have to take the chance

Be brave, put yourself out there

through the journey

My heart has been hanging in mid air

Self doubt creeping in

After sensing that I wasn't being heard

I was lost

Unsure how to begin

I reached out for help

But got knocked down

I felt defeated

Unsure of myself

And not cut out for what I was doing

But for some reason I am lucky

And angels surround me

Lifting me up gently

Holding my hand

And encouraging me along the way

While trying to navigate my way on this path

I was opened up to a new way of thinking

Pushed forward

and listened to by my angels

My spirits were lifted

My footing was regained

And the walls of self doubt came crumbling down

As I created and produced something pretty cool

I learned so much through this journey

And am so proud of what I have accomplished

Without my angels I would still be lost

Struggling to navigate through this on my own

But my heart is held gently by those who surround me

And for this I am incredibly grateful

let the sun shine in

I have been shutting down

I know it

I feel it

I see myself do it

I do not like being here

In this place where I am unhappy

Closing myself off

Allowing the darkness to creep in

There is sunlight surrounding me

Holding my hand

Listening to my concerns

But yet I linger on this dark path

I need to break myself free

Open up

Embrace the uncomfortable

Submerge myself in the unknowing

Reach out

I need to let go

Allow myself to fall

Give this energy a voice

And set it free