brought back home

It helps me to have that kind of friend

Who can sit beside me and say

"Remember when..."

Together we can journey back

She reminds me of how far I have come

How many obstacles I have hurdled

How many brick walls I have faced

And how no matter what I stood up

Strong, and brave, putting one foot in front of the other

She shows me myself

In a way I sometimes struggle to see

Reminding me how much I have opened up

Showing the world what lies deep within me

Even laying out the vulnerable pieces

To be examined

To be healed

Revealing these pieces of myself have helped others to heal

And move forward on their own journeys

My words have brought forth inspiration

The look in my eyes has calmed worried and tired souls

My ability to sit and listen, and just be present with someone

Has brought strength to those who felt they could not go on

There are moments when I forget

How far I have come

I become to engulfed in the problems

That I am creating in my own mind

Not living in the present

Or appreciating where I am today

This friend brings me back

Opening my eyes up

Allowing me to see myself, as myself

It is a gift to have this type of friendship

To share together

Laugh together

And to bring each other back when we are lost

I am so very grateful

roller coaster ride of emotions

I am an emotional creature

Feelings affect me deeply

Happiness and sadness

Raising me up and dragging me down

At times it can feel like a roller coaster ride

Never knowing what the next turn will bring

Intense highs and plummeting lows

With many twist and turns

I am terrified of roller coasters

I hate that feeling that comes in the pit of my stomach

But I have been known to give them a try

Unsure of where they will take me

I jump on

Even though I know it may lead to tears

My emotions ride through me

The light and the dark

Each showing their face

With me guessing when they will arrive

When the lightness is within me

I am shining, brilliant

A smile dancing across my face

But then the darkness takes over

And I feel like I will never make it out

Staring off into the abyss

Struggling to find the light

The only thing to do is ride it through

Embracing the twist and turns

Allowing the tracks to take me

To my next destination

and coming off the ride

Stronger, braver, more confidante in myself

I was hesitant to even begin

Because I knew what could happen when I did

I knew the road that I had potential to travel down

The twist and turns that could arise

The dead ends that I might face

Oh man, was I hesitant

Fearful even, of taking that step into this known sea of instability

I thought I was doing good

Taking all necessary precautions

Devising a plan to protect me on this journey

But there are some things you simply cannot prepare for

And like they say, all best plans usually fall to the way side

So now I am just looking for a way to slip out into the night

Unnoticed, unscathed

Erasing all memories

Reseting myself back to the way I was before

gratitude

In this moment I am grateful for ~

*  The warm sunshine that shone down today

*  The peace infused in my soul from riding my bicycle

*  Being able to ride on my bicycle to places like the one pictured above

*  My magical backpack that holds contents of my heart

*  Friends who tell me like it is, even if it is not what I want to hear

*  Being pushed and challenged to be my best self

*  Twinkle lights above my bed

*  Discovering Pablo Neruda

*  Sitting outside soaking up ~

the music lesson

~

*  Little messages that arrive in the palm of my hand

What are you grateful for today?

taken back

I was not expecting to be pulled back today

To that moment in time

When my world was flipped upside down

I had no idea

That I would be reliving the day all over again

And taken back to the place when it all came together in my head

It played like a movie in my mind

The words that passed between us echoed in my ears

Bringing me down

Making me feel so small

It was awhile back when it all unfolded

Me standing before you with my heart bleeding

As you poured salt on the wound

Time has passed

My heart has healed

But for a brief moment I was there again

The record playing on repeat

As my mind tried to figure it all out

tranquility

There was no time schedule to adhere to

No place that we had to be next

It was just the two of us

Together in the moment

Soaking in the beauty of nature

Listening to the ocean sing us a song

And feeling the warmth of the sun shine down

Tranquility washed over me

As we sat on the cool sand

Close to one another

Each sharing our story, and

Absorbing the peace that comes with silence

We sat there for awhile

You and I

We had the opportunity to just be

In the moment

Exactly as we are

No expectations, no agenda

Just two individuals showing up as themselves

Feeling comfortable with who they are

Breathing in the beauty around them

In this chaotic world

It is these moments that ground us

Awaken our spirit

Illuminate our soul and give us strength

For all the unknown that lies ahead

It is a gift to be given these moments

And a blessing to feel the wisdom they hold