Strong

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New Paltz, NY

While hiking on Sunday I was flooded with the thought "I really want to be strong, I really want to be strong, I really want to be strong." This thought consumed me. I thought about how this is the moment in my life to make myself strong.

But what does strong mean? I thought back to

manzanita

, and how I learned that one word can mean something so different to someone else than what it means to me. Words hold their own meanings in all of our hearts based on where we are in life in that particular moment.

Currently strong means to me:

  • the willingness to put myself out there, be bold and brave
  • facing the challanges in front of me with grace
  • feeling confidant and comfortable in my own skin
  • fully embracing what I love and going for it
  • physically feeling fit and healthy
  • reaching out and asking for help when I need it

I want to feel strong and face this life head on.

escaped

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Ramapo Reservation, NJ

Last night while lying in bed all sorts of incredible thoughts came to my mind
Beautiful words, one right after the other
I begged my mind to remember them
Hoping that when I woke up in the morning they would be there
Waiting patiently for me to write them down
It seems that words, thoughts, and ideas are not as patient as I had hoped
They escaped into the night
Running off leaving me to wonder if they will ever return again

Gratitude

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Heart shaped surprise, New Paltz NY 

When the clocks change 

I change

The darkness nudges it's way into my mind

Pulling me down

Sucking the motivation out from inside me

And watches me struggle until the end of March

The winter is always a difficult time for me

I am going to try my hardest to be positive

and not let the darkness unveil it's

evilness

on my soul.  

I am going to seek out the beauty of what is around me

Taking note in what I am appreciative for

Pushing myself to smile more

And reaching out for a hug more often than I usually would

Today I am so grateful for:

* * No frost on my car this morning

* * The sun shining and the coldness staying away for the day

* * The thrill inside that arises when watching the NY Yankees

* * Lunch with a new friend

* * Finding something I have been looking for, for a long time

What are you grateful for today?