Love Thursday's: Mexico

When I first heard of

love thursdays

I immeditly thought of my

trip

to Mexico. While in Mexico I felt so much love all around me. It was simply an amazing experience.

These two little girls were so sweet. They brought us over cookies and juice while we were working with there brother Oscar in the Nopal's field. Oscar rent's the land from his abuela (grandmother) and works their every single day. Like I go to a Corporate Restaurant to work every day, Oscar goes outside into nature and works with the land.

It was an amazing day for me. Filled with a lot of hard work, but also a lot of fun, love, and inspiration. The respect these individuals have for each other and the respect they have for nature was something that really shined through in them and touched my soul.

Happy LOVE Thursdays. I hope you see the love that is all around you today!

Inspiration

There are two fabulous new spaces out here which are filled with inspiration

Sparkletopia

is a wonderful new site for all things creative. There is so much inspiration and creativity flowing through that page, that it is hard to not be inspired. The wonderful

Christine Mason Miller

is the creator of this jewel.

Shutter Sisters

is an inspiring collabrative blog, filled with all sorts of amazing photos. Many wonderful photographers are a part of this. You can meet all the

sisters

or even

join them

in clicking away. It has already inspired me to pick up my camera and start shooting again.

Not hiding

I was hiding under the covers

Afraid to get out

Afraid to see what was really there

Afraid to see all the things I have been avoiding

Terrified

I am terrified

To see

To feel

To face my mistakes

I struggled

I fought

I came up with a million reasons

why it was better just to stay in bed

Yet one reason gave me the little nudge I needed

to get out

to breathe

to face what was right in front of me

Life

My life was at stake

I was trembling

but I put my first foot on the floor,

I felt the coldness and almost pulled it right back up

I gathered all my strength and placed my second foot on the floor

I stood

I opened my eyes

I looked around

To my surprise what I saw

was beautiful

not so scary

and I sighed a huge sigh of relief

I choose to live,

to experience,

to not hide

And that felt really good!

Finally seeing the Rainbow

The past week has been long

Filled with sleep

A desire to stay in bed,

and a struggle to get out.

The weekend was long

Filled with stress

A desire to have it end,

and a feeling that it was never going to be over.

However Monday is here!

Monday, my favorite day.

Mondays and Tuesdays...

my little weekend,

My fresh start.

This Monday,

this one was a good one.

Getting out of bed,

not sleeping the day away.

Singing my head off.

A girl movie.

Learning new words.

And laughs with mi vida!

The clouds seem to be parting

The Rainbow is smiling it's brilliant colors at me.

My heart is starting to feel lighter,

and I am enjoying the days once more.

Searching...

I am twenty seven years old.
I graduated college last May with a degree in Literature.
It was a huge accomplishment for me, an accomplishment that took many years.

Hear I am, still working in the restaurant buisness.
Still serving drinks, and food, and fired up favorites.
Still in the same job I had since Freshman year of college.

I am scared, nervous, and intimidated to apply for a "career."
I feel like I lack the skills, am to immature, am not qualified enough.
And I am not even sure why I feel this way.

I have been working since I was sixteen.
Every job I had I moved up in.
I am a hard worker.

Why do I feel so down about this?

I have applied for a bunch of jobs...
Yet got nothing back,
not even an interview.

This is what is bringing me down.

What is wrong with me?
Why don't employers want to even sit down with me?
What is wrong with my resume?

This is really hard for me to write.
I feel like I will never get past this point.
I feel stuck, not really sure where to turn.

The problem is...I don't even know what kind of job I would be good at.
I don't what I want.
I love helping people.
I love teaching, and training new people.
I love being creative.

But what kind of a job will encompass those things?

As a kid I always wanted to be a teacher.
And I have a Lit degree, but no teacher certification to speak of.
I don't have the money to go back to school to get that certification.
Can't I find some kind of a job with my degree?
Something... I put in so much time, effort, and money to accomplish this degree.

Looking for a job is hard, and stressful, and is really bringing me down.

2008 Life Proposal

I am working on my life proposal for 2008. This is what I have so far, the rough draft.

My 2008 Life Proposal

I would like to propose a life filled with creative endeavors. A life where I am free to dream, free to create, and free to be "me". In doing this I am connecting with individuals and inspiring them to take their own creative adventure.

I plan on doing this by smiling at strangers more often and provoking them into conversation. Asking "feeling" questions, rather hen just discussing the weather and taking the time to really listen to the answer. Be aware of my enviornment, and truly feel my surroundings.

I will work hard to create with what is around m and incorporate who is around me. And most importantly I will not feel silly or stupid for my efforts no matter who puts me down.

Like any Proposal I am going to have to discuss it with the "bosses" of my life...my heart and mind. I hope they come together on this and fully support my proposal, encourage me along the way, and give me positive feedback.

What would you life proposal look like for 2008?