Remember to Slow Down...

Lately I have been getting angry quickly,

I feel it bubbling up inside me...

I am not as patient as I normally am.

I also have been getting upset over the smallest things...things that normally would not phase me at all.

I am not sure why.

Something must be causing this sadness and anger.

I am trying to remember to slow down, breathe, and remember other people.

I am searching for a word I can put on a bracelet, write on a ribbon and tie it around my wrist, or even write on my hand...

a word to remind me to

stop....

breathe...

and remember....

life is a matter of thinking.

I need to shift my thinking, and right now I am a little stuck at how to do this.

I need to ground myself, and bring myself back to .. "me"

Any suggestions?

People

"Each journey I take allows me to meet interesting people. If only encountering them for a brief moment their presence still remains in my heart." --JB

....

In a few days he will be gone,

back to Mexico for new adventures.

We will miss him greatly,

and it is so hard to say goodbye...

but he is excited to go,

and hopefully we will be there soon.

So we are savoring our last few days together....

and figuring out how to say goodbye.

True self

Sometime people put on an enormous facade,

they are great actors.

They seem strong and sure of themselves.

They stand in the center and make others cower around them.

Yet, inside they are searching for strength,

Trying to stay afloat, and putting others down along the way.

It surprises me when they give a glimpse of their true self.

Scared, timid, unsure of themselves and the world around them.

I always try to reach out to them,

and sometimes they let down their guard,

other times it is simply a battle, never won.

I know it hard to let your true colors fly,

and to really stand by who are...

but at the end of the day I know people love me for me,

and I hope you realize they love you for you as well.

Before Bed

Before bed a million ideas swirl inside my head, just wanting to get out. But I am snug and cozy, and the lights are out, and I don't want to disturb Chris. So I think about them, and ponder them, and then in the morning they have escaped. My dreams have taken them away to a far distant land reserved for all lost thoughts.

Many of those things I wanted to write about. I wanted to explore, delve deeper into. But they are gone. Possibly they will come back to me another night when I am snug in bed, unable to fall asleep. But I know in the morning they will escape me again. I have heard you should always keep a notebook next to your bed. I think I should start doing this. Write in the dark. Maybe my inner thoughts will come out a little bit easier with no lights on to judge them. Letting my hand and the pen guide it's way over the paper without any lines to constrict them, or any eyes to place judgement them. Maybe then my inner vessel will feel free to explore the open ocean.

Tagged...

Well I have officially been tagged. I am so excited. This has never happened before. Usually I just play along, not being asked, but this time I was asked. Thank you

Flying Mermaid

! So now I am going to try to play by the rules the best I can.

First: The Rules

*Link to the blog of the person who taggd you.

*Post these rules on your blog.

*List seven random and/or weird facts about yourself.

*Tag seven random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.

*Let each person know that they have been tagged by posting a comment on their blog.

Now: My Seven Random Things:

1. I love to watch movie credits just to look at the names to get ideas for baby names, even though I am not even married yet and don't plan on having a baby for awhile.

2. I hate driving when it is dark and rainy outside.

3. I don't want a diamond ring for my engagment ring. I would like something unique...I am a mission to find something that really speaks to me.

4. I love to read, but tend to read more than one book at once. It takes me awhile to finish a book because of this. I keep jumping back and forth between books.

5. When Christian is not home I love to dance around the apartment and sing really loudly in the shower.

6. I love cards...sending and receiving them. I think it is so nice to open the mailbox and find a card. What a sweet surprise. It is also so nice to tuck small cards into peoples pockets and have them discover it later on.

7. I prefer to be the passenger on a car ride (if someone I am comfortable with is driving) because I love to look out the window and enjoy the scenery.

Lastly:

The links to seven people I am tagging. I am sorry but I only feel comfortable tagging two people. This is all so new to me. Here are the two:

Kathleen

Marylin

So if you would like to play along, I would love it. :) Let me know so I can read your seven things.